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Thursday, 20 December 2007
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| KIDNEY FOR SALE Guest 03:18:35 |
| | I'm selling my kidney for $30,000. Recipient should also shoulder my medical, hospital, test, and operation fees. PRE and POST operation.
Age: 25 Blood Type: O Location: Manila Philippines Non-smoker Non-drinker Not into drugs
contact me @
jay.nylius@gmail.com
(+63928) 682-2958
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Tuesday, 18 December 2007
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| KIDNEY FOR SALE Guest 15:59:34 |
| | I'm selling my kidney for $20,000 Recipient should shoulder the medical, test, operation, and hospital fee. PRE and POST. Age: 25 Blood Type: O Non-smoker Non-drinker Not into drugs
CONTACT ME @ jay.nylius@gmail.com
(+63928)682-2958
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Sunday, 2 December 2007
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| Fully functional kidney for sale. Y... Guest 06:25:00 |
| | Fully functional kidney for sale. You can choose either kidney. Buyer pays all transplant and medical costs. Of course only one for sale, as I need the other one to live. Serious bids only. Thank you. marine@ispx.com.ph/+63918-3400793 |
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Friday, 23 November 2007
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| hi am a 27 year old guy want to sel... Guest 17:33:14 |
| | hi am a 27 year old guy want to sell my Kidney.. Contact +919881070237 and my email id is rujubhatia@yahoo.com |
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| Want to sell my kidney Guest 17:31:08 |
| | Want to sell my kidney for $15000 + other expenses. Contact +919881070237. Am a 27 year old guy, blood group O+ve, i DONT SMOKE NOR DRINK and am pure vegetarian. |
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Monday, 14 August 2006
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| Is it just me? Phoenix 06:44:40 |
| | Or do things seem really d*ad around here? I've only gotten 7 posts in, like, hours and hours.
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"People always clap at the wrong things" ~~~Catcher in the Rye
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| Camp is coming up Juniper 06:00:41 |
| | I don't know if folks remember, but back in February I was talking about how I was going to camp this summer. Well, by this time next week I will be on a train up to Maine!
This is scary and exciting and all kinds of things. Right now I'm busy getting the house ready for M*ther's arrival (she's going to cat sit for me for most of the week I'll be gone) and sorting out what I'm going to pack into my brand spanking new rolling duffel bag. I have two new bathing suits with three coordinated swim shorts to go with, a new jungle animals beach towel, and a few new shirts. The official packing list includes things like 7 pairs of shorts, 2 pairs of long pants, sweatpants, windbreaker, jacket, three towels, one pair twin sheets, and so on. I'm not sure how all of that is going to fit! But I'll figure something out. I have a few extra bungee cords.
Other things to pack include my broken stained glass dragon to repair in the stained glass workshop, my digital camera with lots of compact flash space for the digital photography workshop, ear plugs for sleeping in the "noisy sleepers" cabin (I had to fess up to snoring), and a geek strap so I can wear my glasses into the lake.
It's been about 20 years since I went swimming, and the idea of appearing in public in a bathing suit (even one with shorts over it) is a little daunting. There's a women's skinny dipping night, and, while I'd like to participate in that, I'm giving myself much leeway to do what feels OK in the moment and not do what doesn't.
That's how I'm approaching the whole thing. Unlike kids' camp, there are no requirements. You don't *have* to participate in anything, and they recommend bringing a novel and taking at least one afternoon off to just relax. I'm confident that I won't be mountain biking, playing tennis or softball, or doing the ropes course. The jury's out on kayaking or canoeing. Definite "do" items include several workshops: stained glass, pottery, jewelry making, mosaic. Also the nighttime nature walk (cool!), and maybe yoga or meditation. I think the 7 AM swim across the lake won't be my thing, but I am game to join a group planning a presentation for the Talent/No Talent show. And we'll see how soon I overheat at the square dance.
If you'd like to see more about Camp Camp, their website is http://www.campcamp.com.
Yikes! I'm going to camp!
Juniper
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| back, and with issues :-) Ravensong 05:23:33 |
| | i didn't want to come back. first of all, this group is so hard to read from google. and i can't find another newsreader to use. (any and all suggestions welcome) second of all, i wasn't sure we'd be welcome here. but, well...thing is, we have a problem of sorts, and virtually no support. and i couldn't think of anywhere else to go where i could k*ck and scr*am and cr* and ramble and it would be ok. small spoiler for medical stuff. nothing graphic. just in case you don't want to read. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * it has been recommended by 2 neurosurgeons that we have brain surgery. a posterior fossa decompression, to be exact, which actually includes a bit of spine surgery as well. *sigh* it is to correct a (probable) congenital malformation (chiari) that is now creating major problems for us; although in reality, as i look back, the symptoms have been with me for a long time, i just have been living with the pain and numbness and fatigue, etc...instead of doing anything about them. without the surgery, the condition may progress, the symptoms may worsen, and i'll probably need the surgery later on.
so many things come into making the decision to have the surgery. i have to be on short term disability (again), and will be making less money and able to pay fewer bills while i'm off. i'll need to find a way to pay for my meds during that time, as they are expensive, and my salary won't cover them. it's just for a couple of months, but that's close to $550. more, if longer. i have to worry about whether i'll lose my job or not (seems i tend to do that when i'm on std). i'm going to have to rely on my family for awhile after - ugh!!! being dependent on family members makes me absolutely nauseous. i have a friend or two here, but nobody that i can see everyday. maybe one that i can check in with everyday, though, so that might be good.
i just recently started thinking seriously about making an appt to discuss the finer points of the surgery - the actual procedure, the post-op period, etc... - and it occurred to me that i really am -scared- of the surgery itself. what if something goes wrong? i mean, not like me d*ing, but like me becoming paralyzed or something? i can accept d*ath, but not becoming totally dependent on anyone. no way.
oddly, most everyone inside is quiet about all this except, of course, katy. otoh, she doesn't want to have the surgery, because she's afraid she'll be disappeared. otoh, she's afraid not to have it, because if we don't, "our brain will fall out."
i'm pretty much a mess, but i need to decide soon. i really just want to do it and get it over with.
diane, of Ravensong
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Sunday, 13 August 2006
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| Honestly things are bothering me Catkejan 23:31:54 |
| | sp su*
Probably the most graphic and wasteful post I've ever made. I don't expect anyone to read or reply, because I can't ask for that, even if I don't mind. I don't know what to do.
i a m n o t a f r a i d i a m n o t a f r a i d
I feel like there's nothing left for me to do with life. Like my life really did end when it should have, and I only think it didn't, so I'm still watching but the world has stopped. So I beg for death every day, but I can't k*ll myself, either.
I know I shouldn't bother people more with what I am thinking. I can, because just now I think I don't matter. I'm not sure, though. Sorry.
We told someone I couldn't really kill myself, implying I couldn't really bear to, and zie told us zie was glad. But that was a lie. The truth is, I think the way I should kill myself is actually physically impossible. Or at least really, really hard. This is sort of a problem. I tried really hard, but it seems physically impossible to me. It took me so long to even get it half way. I'm proud of that, but it doesn't help in the long run.
After so long wishing I were suffering and dying whenever I hear of it ever having happened to anyone else, I'm pretty sure I'd really like to. But this is another week I haven't killed myself. That's also sort of a problem.
I have slowly begun to wonder how other people manage it. I think they're not constrained, trapped, by compulsion and ritual and care like I am. Every once in a while it's like a fog clears and I become aware of how boxed into limitations I am now, of how much of myself I've lost and how reduced I've become.
I tried other methods, after I got (more) desperate. I tried h*nging the b*dy. I thought I had stopped realizing things, then later I realized the b*dy was on the ground. And then I realized it was breathing. But I still think that idea has promise.
Anyway.
Actually, in some ways I have been becoming less careful and constrained. Sometimes now, I can even do things that are unclean, because I can just think "What's the worst [some unclean thing] can do? Kill me?" That's nice. But it turns out many unclean things aren't actually harmful. Who would've figured?
I'm really sorry for what I wrote above. People have told me it's OK to say here, but I'm still really sorry, because I'm very well aware of everything that's up there. I'm sorry if I bothered anyone. I don't deserve replies, and I don't know what anyone would say, but I don't know what else to say.
I feel like never hearing the others here again, any of them. I feel like never reading a book again. I feel like never having any more songs. I know what it's like to like things. I just want to be good and not like or have them. I feel mildly displeased knowing I will (which feels like a really strong feeling just now). I wish it would stop.
I feel like never experiencing cats, good food, the cold, coziness, etc. I have liked those even though I don't deserve them. And know better. For a long time, everything has been after the last time. I am not supposed to be al*ve.
Just about the only thing I can do is sit here thinking about that, but no new thoughts seem to be coming. I don't feel good.
Sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for talking. And the other thing. Sorry.
jp
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| anxious at work... Guest 03:52:25 |
| | having an anxiety attack. not sure why. i think it might have something to do with the changing position of the sun, heralding fall. I've been feeling like the summer's over since August began, which is a little silly, but there ya have it.
ok, someone's waking up in side to take over for me. maybe it's that i didn't realize i was out by myself, and something made me realize it.
(we hate it when the kid feels like she's supposed to be doing the paperwork. not that she's not good at it. but she stresses so much over it. *sigh*)
i dunno. just, something makes me feel like it's a long time ago. like memories from that time - not necessarily bad ones - are floating up in front of my eyes for a moment, then going away. like, getting new sneakers for the upcoming new school year.
had a fight with dave this morning. maybe that's why i'm upset.
(wow. we're really dissed out for some reason. it's much later in the day than we'd expected it to be. ok, let's go get some tea n walk around a bit, kiddo. it's tough, cuz it's jen, n not the usual light-hearted kiddo.)
ok, i guess we'll be ok. just need to stand up, walk around, eat some fruit, drink some tea, talk to people. reconnect.
no need for replies.
jt
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| Re: Quick Fix Solution To Acne Problems: Guest 00:32:26 |
| | if it's ok with you we re not gonna check your spamming link
are you really that thick? you think makeup makes you beautiful? just covers you in creme which is a whole other thing
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Saturday, 12 August 2006
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| replies Guest 18:26:51 |
| | i want and need to reply to some folks who did reply to me. right now we are in terrible depression sleeping and crying. can't do better. will reply when i can.
betsy
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| need help with anon posting Jill 05:08:37 |
| | Can someone please email me info on how to post anon? Keep it simple as I am going to email it to someone who is asking me for it and I can't answer any questions she might have if things go wrong *grin*
Thanks! Rainbow Colors (Jill)
-- ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ The colors blend, the edges soften. Swirling and mixing we are becoming white light. jill@tuells.org
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Friday, 11 August 2006
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| ...it's about that time guys :) Guest 23:34:56 |
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yes... they will get stronger
expect more from you all
give it to me : )
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| just a im still lurkin post Celeste 16:00:29 |
| | just a post realy to say hi to you guys. read y'all here n is good to read how your all doin n would like to post more to some of ya but for now just kinda wanted to say hey n that am thinkin of u guys, n hope somtime in near future might be able to post more here cos miss that, but for now is good to read yous. *waves to all* c.
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Thursday, 10 August 2006
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| my usual angst Guest 23:26:58 |
| | hey. me again. thanks to those who responded to my last post. will probably respond individually the next time i feel like it might be ok for me to spend an hour or two on the computer at home.
talked to frank yesterday. left, and didn't want to go home. sat n read in the car for a bit, until frank came out to leave for the day and asked me why i was still there. (i mean, it's ok that i was - he just wanted to know. so i told him, but then left.)
stopped at the drug store a block from our house. spent 40 minutes or so wandering around, finding a couple of things that i decided that i needed. found more fish oil that looked soy-free. saw cinnamon capsules, n a kid inside said that she'd feel better if we started taking 'em, cuz she wouldn't worry so much about us having so much sugar. (cinnamon's supposed to help metabolize sugar or something.)
to the kids' delight, the cinnamon capsules are powdered cinnamon in a gelatin capsule. so opening the container releases a waft of cinnamonny smell. it's hoped that taking this at the same time as the fish oil caps will mitigate the fishy reflux problem...though we haven't had a problem with this brand the 2 times we've taken it so far...
bought the 4th book in a series. been waiting for this book for awhile. been enjoying it.
bought some insect repellant so i can garden in the evenings without getting eaten alive.
i think that's it.
talked to the cashier for a few minutes until someone else came up and asked for cigarrettes. she and i have chatted before...
then i went home.
realized that a kid was out, and pretty dissed, such that we were mute around dave. luc said a few things to dave, explaining. dave picked up the accent, said "ok, luc's out. what's wrong?" luc told him essentially that we felt the need for some alone time, probably needed to eat, but had no appetite. luc said, when dave queried further, that the kid refused to talk, and merely said inside: "i just don't feel good."
a phrase from our childhood. we've learned that it wasn't an expression of physical discomfort. it was a plea for acceptance and affirmation.
sometimes it got us tucked up in bed with k*sses and comforts.
but not usually.
she's hurting now, as i write this.
we've been listening to C0ldplay today. there're emotions associated with their songs, especially given that i listened to it a lot during the 2nd convention that involved the r*p*st. "how long must you pay for it?"
a long, long time.
frank says it's not fair.
am hurting again. a mute sadness, it seems.
back to work for me... thanks for listening.
jt
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| Back! Eridanus Fish 05:36:36 |
| | Hello Everyone, I'm sorry we haven't been here, but we went to visit the family on the other side of town for Crsms. We were only supposed to stay one day but came down with a flu and didn't get home until just recently. It's certainly been hectic for us! I'm afraid Dat was more than a little bit grumpy by the time we left. He spent the last hour of the visit hiding in the spare room sulking while the family finished their game of monopoly. I think there's too much to catch up on but we'll read threads as they get posted to.
Nara for Eridanus
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| #112 you should look for support Guest 02:53:26 |
| | #112 you should look for support it's probably a switch you can undo it...
hey babe arrived ?
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| M*scha's story online for one more week only Luthe 00:15:09 |
| | I am rushing this post...sorry...
There's only one more week that you can purchase (for 4$) M*scha's story online. It's right here: http://www.fictionwise.com/ebooks/eBook35891.htm
nicky
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